Sing me to sleep
July 2nd 2008 22:09
This morning I woke up abnormally early. And I mean early. 4am. As soon as I woke, I knew there was no chance of falling sleep again. My body made that clear. The bed no longer moulded softly around my body, my eyes were wide open and worried about it being dark. I was fearful I would never sleep again.
So I got up and walked into the chest of draws. Who left them there?
Instead of feeling resentful that my husband was snoring and snorting away in his slumber and that it was his fault I was awake, I realised the exquisite possibility of the stillness.
I began to relish the chance to get a few things done unhindered and unquestioned.
As long as I didn’t make too much noise there was a lot I could do. I wanted to be alone now. I was happy the world wasn’t listening.
I trotted to the kitchen to make a cuppa. All was well until my dog realised I wasn’t passing through for a quick toilet visit. He thought it was play-time, that I had come downstairs purely to play ball with him. Huh, well my state of arousal did not stretch to that sort of caper.
So I discovered that the silence of the house and street inspired some quiet productiveness: I’ve organised photos, I’ve Orbled, replied to emails, wrote cards, done some work, wrote a letter to a bank trying to rip me off and enjoyed two morning cuppas while listening to The Smiths.
Now the sun is getting up, the hue of pink through the grey sky tells me so.
The world will be awake soon.
In a while, I will panic about how I’m going to stay awake for the rest of the day to work.
But for now I’m not bothered; I’ll figure it out later.
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Comment by Michaelie
Flick Wit
For the rest of the day, I suggest caffeine. And no applications for night-fill at supermarkets!
Mich
Comment by Tracy
Movies and Life
As you said, I usually I stay in bed and get frustrated, or try and read, but nope this morning, that didn’t work.
Hope you have a great day and yes, caffeine will be my friend.
Tracy
Comment by Michaelie
Flick Wit
You have a great day too, hopefully without feeling like a zombie.
Comment by Tracy
Movies and Life
I'm meeting a friend after work so that will help me through the day. It's always one of those talk-for-hours catch-ups in a cosy cafe.
Byeee
Comment by Aimzster
Health and Beauty
Reality TV
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Comment by Tracy
Movies and Life
That's great that you generally feel peaceful if you're awake at that time. I usually feel panicked but am trying to get myself to appreciate the stillness and peace. But like you said, generally more sleep is the best option.
Would you believe I had a good day? And I didn't need much coffee! Work was great and then meeting my friend was fantastic, so early mornings don't have to be all bad
But I don't want too many of them!
Have a good weekend,
Tracy
Comment by Sara Dobson
My Turn
It feels like I don't have to panic later that I haven't got enough time to do eveything. This morning is one of those mornings
Comment by Tracy
Movies and Life
I like getting a post done when I wake up early as well. I feel like I've done something before I leave the house which is nice.
I can imagine that your days would generally be busy, how old is your daughter?
Nice to see you,
Tracy
Comment by Miswanderlust
Killer Beats
Ramble On
Hipnotherapy
I feel you sister! That stillness can be invigorating! I enjoy the fruits of your insomnia inspired labor!
Mis
Comment by Tracy
Movies and Life
Thank-you! The other night I was worrying about a work deadline so much that I woke up at 3am. After a while of trying to get back to sleep, it was obvious it wasn't going to happen. So I got up and did it. It wasn't as bad as I was expecting and the silence of the house and world helped. It's not a solution I could do that often, but this time it worked.
Thanks for popping in as always,
Tracy
PS the next night I was in bed by 7.30!